dear nick, you were my first everything and i mean everything. i never felt more safe with anyone but you. we were so wrong for each other but with you somehow it still felt right. i’ll never get to experience you walking me to classes or saying i love you again. i will always love you and never be over you no matter how hard i try. your brown curly hair was so beautiful. your eyes were so cold but so warm at the the same time. i miss holding hands to match our freckles up. i miss your grandma’s sweet hello’s when i opened the door. i even miss the horrible stuff behind closed doors. i love you forever and always