Unsent Messages

you're the only reason i'm still here. for the past year, you are the only thing that actually kept me going. i think about that a lot. because why. why you. every time i think of leaving i tell myself that i cant do that to you, but i dont think you would even really care. yeah maybe you would be sad for a day, but then you would carry on, go to university just like you've always planned, get another girlfriend and go to parties. i'm not important to you anymore. i know i used to be. but not anymore.
i dont even know where we went wrong. it wasn't supposed to be like this. never did i think that we would end up here. never. so i'm sorry. i'm sorry for destroying what we had, and for fucking us up. i don't know exactly what i did, but i know that this isn't your fault.
i'll see you soon.