Unsent Messages

am i where im supposed to be? is this where we thought we'd end up five years ago? is this how you've imagined your life would be? tell me how you really feel. i know that the person i found love in is still within you, underneath the person the world, told you to be. you became the person that society told you to be instead of the person you really are. you are a person that is incredibly down to earth with a soul made out of gold. i just want you to know that, i pray for your safety wherever you go. i believe we were meant to be in this lifetime, but the universe had other plans for us. or maybe... at this point there are no maybes my love. you have everything you've ever wanted set in stone. i have everything i've ever wanted but my soul lingers for you almost everyday. tell me why i can never seem to get you out of my mind? i'm upset at how i can't even be your friend anymore, but i shouldn't count on you to be, right? i'm sorry i my happiness depended on your presence. you are my love, the person i found love in. i found love in the way you would say aluminum. i found love in the never ending facetime calls filled with laughter and smiles. i found love in the songs you found love in yourself, the lyrics of the music that you were able to relate to. now tell me, did you really love me? or was everything i've ever known is a lie? if we can't leave each other alone for a second, does that mean we are still in love. you say all the words i've never expected you to say to me. you were nothing but a safe space up until this point. i'm glad i met the person you used to be, because nobody else will know you like how i did. i know we'll meet again in another lifetime because we met in this lifetime for a reason. i am so thankful for all of the memories over the course of 5 years. i still remember each one as if it was yesterday. please don't forget me and the memories we had. it'll be of importance one day, i promise you. a part of me still knows you care, but a part of me knows you don't. you proved you don't anymore. who will i tell my accomplishments to now. who will i call when i need the presence of you. i love you william. why did it have to be this way. you promised, i waited. i hope we speak again soon thanos.