Unsent Messages

Kale! I'm saying Kale because if one day you decide to look up your name on this site, you won't wonder if any of these are for you. You'll know. I miss you. I miss you every day. I'm sorry for everything. I'm realizing now how horrible I was to you, even after everything you did for me. Apologizing without changing is just manipulation. It was never intentional manipulation, and I thought I was doing better. I thought an apology could fix it all. It can't. In September you said our history had become just a lot of pain. I hope one day we can change that. I'm doing a lot better, just struggling with how I look because of what's been said about me. It is what it is. I just miss you, so much. I know you hate me and have forgotten all about me, I wish I knew how to forget about you, but I think about you all the time. Maybe I am a joke, maybe all the soulmate stuff was bullshit and you never loved me back. But, I don't regret a second of the time I spent with you. I hope our time is continued eventually, my life isn't the same without you in it. I miss you more and more each day. I didn't know it was possible to miss someone this much. Please come back so I can make you proud. This is so stupid, but whatever. I love you. So much.