i dont know what to say here but i need to write it somewhere because i cant keep spamming your dms. i hate this. i hate how far apart we are now, i hate that i cant talk to you and hear your voice and it fucking kills me. i hate that you pushed me away. i hate myself because i did it first. you will forever be the one person i fucking love and i will never forget you. i know people think it gets easier but its not going to, you will forever, fucking forever, be the one for me. im so sorry i ruined us. i hate myself so much for it. i love you doe, i love you so fuckiny much. i just hope that maybe in the future we get it right. never give up please. youre perfect tough guy.