Unsent Messages

I see you everyday and pretend I still don’t have feelings for you but I do. I just want to do all the things that I didn’t when we were going out. I want to meet up with you, I want to cuddle you, fuck you, joke and mess around with you. I miss seeing that side of you but you’re so different now. You fuck whoever you like, you talk to whoever you like and you don’t know how it makes me feel. You’re now so numb from whatever love you had for me and I can’t fix that. It’s tearing me apart knowing we can never be more than friends. No one can make me physically make me feel the way you do and you don’t understand that, no one has never made me feel the way you have. I look for you in so many different people and not one person has even came close to measuring up to you. I don’t want to be just friends I want to facetime until early in the morning and tell you that I love you and for you to say it back and really mean it but I know you never could.