god I love you. I love you so so much and you really make my heart hurt so bad and my lungs don't work when im with you but I don't care because you are literally so perfect and im so so mad because I really should have kissed you when I was able to and now its too late because you are with him and im happy for you, I just kinda need to relearn how to love and exist without thinking of your lips and your hands and your heart.
I love you and im really sorry I didn't tell you back then. maybe one day u see this and I just hope you know its me and its real and raw and I love you.