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i want to be free. i have to let you go, but i dont want to. you made me the happiest. butterflies in my tummy, you managed to top every guy i felt something for. i need to let you go, but i still want to hold on on the idea i had the of you. i ask myself if i like you or if i like the idea of you. i have to let go, but how do i let go. do i stop texting you, and then hope you'll text me back? do i block you and hope you'll text me somewhere else? do i start seeing someone else and then cy when you finally got with the girl you wanted all along. i have to let you go, but i cant. but i need to, and if seeing you with another girl is what it takes for me to move on, i dont want it. yes i'd rather leave than fight, but can you blame me? sending me mixt signals, talking about other girls in front of me. if you're not the one for me, i will wait for the one. i don't think i loved you, i think i loved the idea of you. but i guess it's time for me to let you go. but please, let me go too. im begging you. i cant keep going if you keep pulling me in. just show me that you're not interested. what changed between us? did you get bored? did you find me attractive first but then you saw another girl walk past me and your heart flipped. i hope you'll find the one. i wish you luck, this is me letting you go. thank you for everything.