it hurts thinking that i am completely in love with you, when i probably shouldn't be. i wish i could tell you how i feel, that everything changed when you held my hand and wanted to come home with me. when you kissed me on the cheek and held me on the escalator so i felt safe and took me to the park. i want to go back to the park, i keep thinking about you laying on my chest and your arm underneath me and the way you looked at me when you propped yourself up- i wish i never looked away. i wish you kissed me, how terrible am i?
i love you b
