Unsent Messages

i am so sorry. i wish you could know how terrible i feel. yes everyone reading this. i ghosted him. and i feel like shit about it. if only you could know that the only reason why i did it was because my friend liked you. a friend that i value so much. when we started talking, i already knew that she liked you, but what was i supposed to do, ignore you? and you were so sweet, i just couldn't do that. but the fact that i was betraying my friend just kept eating away at me, and eventually i decided i just couldn't deal with it anymore. so i didn't respond to your text. of course, you had no idea why i didn't respond to your text. you just thought i was a piece of shit. and you're not wrong. now another thing is eating away at me. the idea that i could ever make you feel like you're not good enough. and if you're reading this jt, you are so good enough. you are incredibly sweet and i wish i could carry on a conversation like you can. anyways, i just needed to get that off my chest, because I've been really upset about it ever since. oh, and you're color is red because i know that's you favorite color:) i wish you the best.