Unsent Messages

bro. what happened. one minute we were thriving and then within a second it all changed. i don’t want to pretend i’m okay with this anymore. i’m hurt. you hurt me. and you know it, but don’t even try to see the obvious problem. how can you forget about me. how? i genuinely was in love with you. everything about you was so perfect. your eyes.. i could look into them forever. a clear blue. reminded me of the sky, and how lovely it was. your smile, it made me have hope for happiness. from the way you walk, to the way talk.. it’s perfect. i wanted to be with you every second of the day. i never got tired of you. i never forgot about you, no matter what situation i was in. i still think you’re perfect. i still love you, might not be IN love, but i love you. and i thought the feeling was mutual. but i guess not. you fell for her, the second you saw her. it broke me, but at least you’re happy. that’s all i want. you asked her out, how sweet. something i wish you would’ve done for me. she was your world. still is i see. i hate that she hurt you. i hate her for playing with your feelings. i’m sorry she cheated. i’m sorry she manipulates you. i hate you won’t take my advice. it’s not for me, it’s for you. i want you to be happy, even if it isn’t with me. i texted you everyday, no response. i’d say hi in the halls, no response. for a whole month i wondered why you wouldn’t speak to me. and then you did. you finally said hello back. i haven’t been as happy as i was in that moment. then we talked for a few days, telling each other everything. and stupid me, popped the question. “why didn’t you speak to me earlier?”. i’m so fucking stupid for asking. i wish i never had. i expected to hear its because your ex didn’t want you to, but no. it’s because you forgot about me. you didn’t think about speaking to me, forgot my person. i’ve never felt more pain. ever. how could you forget about me? after all we’ve been through? what the actual fuck. you weren’t just my person okay? you were my best friend. but i guess i wasn’t yours, was i? or you lied to my face. thanks, appreciate it. i hope you have fun with life though. i don’t wanna talk to you for awhile. love, m.