Unsent Messages

You were my best friend for 10 years. I was in a horrible place last year and you know what was going on and you never asked me how i was doing, how i was feeling. You never sent me a single text because you "don't like talking on the phone" but you never fucking made a move to come by my house or anywhere. I had to tell you so many times that it was so horrible for me and probably the hardest time of my life but you didn't give a single shit. L was there for me, I was at my lowest but he at least came once a month just to see how I was doing. Yes now he isn't my best friend anymore but we are still friends. But who are you? I don't reconize you anymore. I cannot hate you, I could never hate you because I love you too much for that. But you disappointed me so much. I saw you 3 times this year and you never apologized or said anything to me. One of our friend said that you said that it wasn't a problem for you to see me again but you aren't the one who was struggling every day during a whole year, knowing that your best friend wasn't even there for you. So I sure hope that it wasn't a problem for you because you have nothing to say about that. I could have said it but not you. You were the one who made it like that between us. I tried so so hard, I send a friend of mine who was in the same school as you who isn't even your friend to tell you how unhappy and sad i was. You fucking laughed. But you know what ? It's life. I became stronger and realized how you treated me. I am now on my way to be a happy, independant and beautiful women. Without you.