Unsent Messages

It´s black bc I don´t really know what you made me feel, I never knew, I am dating someone else and I thought I was over you, and actually, I am, but I hate the fact that you will always have a peace of my heart in your hands. I hate that you are still in my head, that you are still that person for who I´d do anything for. I hate that you are my first love, i hate that you always knew, I hate the old childish and little version of me who fell in love with you. I hate that my girlfriend is not my first love, I know she´s not. Sometimes I think she is, but then I think of you, and although I don´t remember everything that I felt for you, you are one of the most important people in my life. I hate it. I hate that I cannot talk with you like a normal friendship does, because maybe we´ll never be a normal one. And finally, I hate that I wished you liked me, at least half as much I liked you. I will always hate that. But I will always love you. Maybe I wouldn´t date you because I know our frindship would die, but I wish you liked me. I will always love you.