i am honestly trying to hard to find the good in u. maybe i should give up but despite the inconsistencies and lies and pretty much constant mooching off me i still feel mad attached to u and i'm not sure why. were u ever rly attracted to me? like did u ever see me as more than one of ur "options" or was that all something to get in my pants? i really want to be there for u cause i know you've been thru a lot but there's only so much i can take. please be straightforward. j say what u want from me and be honest because i want this to work but idk if u do.