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#3 I think?. Me again. I think I'm just ranting here at this point which, I guess, is annoying. You've been on my mind for the past like 3 days which sucks. Today I realized that I forgot your last name. And I just can't remember it. Maybe a W? Or an F? A G? Either way, it makes me pretty happy. I'll take it as a sign that you're starting to fade from my memory even though I feel like that's not true. I think it's just a temporary blank in my memory. I've also been thinking a lot about how I would love to scroll through my DMs because there are so many old conversations in there that I'd love to re-read but I can't do it because our conversation is there too. The one where you gave that awful apology. That conversation just gives me chills and makes me nauseous to think about. I just want to do things normally again and I feel like everyday I discover something else that you screwed up for me. And you know what's crazy? You have a younger sister. You did what you did, while having a younger sister. I hope that never happens to her I really do. Last time I talked to her I just remember her being funny and I hope she does great in life. Her view of you is probably amazing, and as much and I hate you I hope it stays that way. It would be awful to know that about your older brother. Best of luck to her in the future.