Unsent Messages

It has always been and always will be you. You are the one I look for in a crowded room and you are the one I know I can look to when things get hard for me. You have stood by me through my toughest moments and I appreciate you so much for being in my life and you know I will always be there for you. If you call me in a few years time needing someone to talk to, I will be there, always. It seems that I can’t imagine a life where I don’t see or speak to you everyday though and that terrifies me. I will truly be lost without you. You are my best friend and soulmate all in one person. Whenever I tell you that I love you , I wholeheartedly mean it. Whenever I hug you, I’m hugging you with all of my heart. My hug is telling you things I can never say out loud. I can never tell you how I feel, I don’t want to complicate things but there is always some silly part of me that thinks you feel the same. I think I’m breaking my own heart by believing it. I hate that I have to love you so silently, it’s killing me. I hate that I feel so strongly about you that it brings me to tears and you may never know. All I want to do is show you and shower you in affection and love. You are the most amazing person in my life and I am still here right now because of you. You have the most beautiful soul and I have connected with you in a way that I never have with anyone before. I don’t think you know the extent of how much you mean to me. Whatever happens in the future, all I wish is for you to be happy. You are going to do amazing things in life. Whether I’m in your life or not by then, just know I will be cheering you on. I will always cheer you on. I will never forget you. You have impacted me so much. I will always search my surroundings in hopes that I’ll see you and your beautiful smile and hear your beautiful laugh. But for now, I’m going to appreciate every moment I spend with you as my friend before our lives begin because you are a great friend to me and I’m lucky enough to have you in my life as just that. I know you won’t see this and even if you do, you won’t know that I’m the one who’s written this but I truly mean it when I say that I’m completely and utterly in love with you and although it hurts, oh how it hurts, I never want to stop feeling this way, feeling this way for you gives me a reason to keep going, I want to make you proud. I hope I am :) I love you bub. I’ll see you soon