Unsent Messages

I am so sorry for not being able to show you how much I actually loved you and cared about you. You were my first real love and you will always have a special place in my heart, even if you hate me. I am so sorry for all the pain that I have caused you. I still hate myself for it, and I’m sure you do too. I’m trying to move on. So are you, and you probably already have. I wish we lasted. I wish we worked out. I wish I could’ve shown you how much I loved you, and how much I still love you. I know you hate talking to me and I am so sorry for trying to start conversations with you. I really do want to move on and I really am trying, but it’s do incredibly hard when you lost your best friend and the love of your life at the same time. I want to thank you for all those years we spent together. I remember you said you believed we were soulmates. I still believe we might be, but I’m sure you couldn’t care less about me. I’m sorry for the way our friendship ended. I’m sorry for not being able to show you the love you deserve. I miss talking to you and I miss being your friend. I hope we can be friends again in the future. I love you.