Unsent Messages

I loved you, and bits of me still do. And for the months we talked, I never told you I loved you. And I didn’t because there was no chance of us actually being together. And I’m sorry, that it was like I lead you on. But we couldn’t be together and i found something to fill in the voids I wish you filled. We went so well together, and the way you talked to me and the way you’d tell me I’m perfect, and the way we blended just perfectly was insane, how we could be loving and joking all at once. I was happy. I was the happiest I ever was, and I wish we could have been together and you didn’t live so far. Because who I’m with now, I’m happy but he isn’t the same as you and I. When I was with you I didn’t cry I wasn’t worried I wasn’t anything negative and i all I felt was positivity. With my new person, I love him, but like I said he’s not you. He’s not completely perfect and compassionate like you. And I miss you and I miss what I once called us. And I hated the fact I couldn’t say I love you because I feared you felt the same, and I knew you did but you never told me either. But I fell in love with who you were and your personality, your cute face, your voice, and just you for being you and caring for me. And I’m sorry, for leaving you so unexpected for him. With no warning. Just a text. Saying I found someone else. It hurt you. And I can never forgive myself. But victor, I really did love you. And I still love the thought of you. And I’m sorry. For this all. (Also I made this red because it’s your favorite color, same as mine:). )