I dont think you will ever be able to understand how badly you hurt me. You continually reassure me that you have no idea what you've done to me. Why do I still miss you everyday, though? I literally cannot help myself. I know you just want friendship and to just hookup with me, but I'll do it just to spend time with you. I wish I could tell you all of these things, but I already know the outcome. I love you forever. I wish you'd just see me, once. If you did, you'd know how much I love you and how much I'd fight for you. I'm not sad, just disappointed in you and me. I feel like we could have it all, but you refuse to see it. I forgive you, and I only want what you want. I keep it all inside, because I love you that much.