we were together for so long and i wish i never treated you that way, you mean so much to me i miss you so bad i wish i could tell you how much i love you. you gave me happiness that i've never experienced and i wish you knew how much i still care, i got addicted to cocaine when you left me. i wish i never even tried it. my eating disorder is worse than its ever been and i dont want you anywhere near that. i've turned into someone that's not me. i'm sorry, and i love you.