why did you have to be so nice to me and then leave me like that? If I knew you were gonna leave I would've never gotten attached. Everyday the more and more you talked to me the more attached I became. I was in a reality that wasnt even real and living my life thinking that you actually cared about me, my problems and who I was. I brainwashed myself into thinking that everything was fine but nothing was fine. I became jealous of whoever you talked to and became a version of myself that I never wanted to be. Why do I have to care when you don't even think about me anymore? I dont want to care but I do and I get so jealous. I'm stuck in a blackhole that I cant get out of.