Unsent Messages

i know that we have gotten really close, sometimes we have been closer than others, we have our ups and downs, right now i think we are in a down. but nevertheless i still care for you the same way i always have. right from the day i met you i knew you were special to me, i have never felt this way about someone other than you. you have said before you don't know why you decided to text me in the first place, you just did it. we were meant to meet each other for a reason, our paths crossed with a purpose. we both don't know what that is, i guess we will find out eventually. sometimes i feel like we are not as close as i think we are, i have put a lot into you and i don't think i have gotten anything back, but that does not stop me. no matter what you say or do i will continue to have these feelings for you. and i have honestly tried to put them behind me, i have tried to just be friends. because i know you do not feel the same way and you probably never will, but i still cannot put it behind me, it takes me over,you are the only thought to ever cross my mind, you are always in my head, and i will never forget you. and it hurts, because i have seen you go down a dark path, you have changed, and i still feel the same way about you. you have given me every reason to pack up and leave, but i can't do it. i am slowly dying inside without you. i want to help with you everything i have. no matter what happens i want to be close with you, you mean the world to me as a friend and more. if our paths do not end up with us being together than i at least want a strong friendship bond, because at some point i would have to move on from those feelings if i can find the strength to do it. i know that no matter what happens between us i will never forget you.