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you created so much pain for me, i still cry inside when i hear someone say your name; it sucks. but yet i miss you so much that you wouldnt know, the way that you kissed me, hugged me, did everything made me happy, yet everytime we wouldnt be together you would argue with me, and blame everything on me. you've turned into one of those guys now tho. i wonder if you still think about me the way i think about you. i just want you back, but i cant take the pain again. everytime i see you at school we still manage to stare into eachothers eyes like we are inlove again. i know you dont love me and i understand, i miss you tho, and i've tried so hard to get rid of these feelings but i cant. the day we started to play basketball together, when i would leave my friends to play basketball with you, was when i started to fall for you, and the day you gave me that cake, man it was dry but it made my day, all those friday nights we would be together with our friends, made me happy and we werent even dating then. i remember sieannas birthday, i didnt wanna do anything yet you did, and thats when we fell apart. you believed your friend that tried to get into my pants as well over me. "shes probably tuning everyone in millicent" and you laughed, didnt stick up for me, used to ignore me for days. "you probably sell your nudes thats why you have so much money" no i just work all the time thats why. your the reason i dont believe in love. the night we broke up you blamed everything on me, yeah i balled my eyes out for a week straight, then you left your friends to be 'cool', dick move.