i miss you more than i say i do. i don't feel like the world is crashing down anymore though. it just feels like i'll never get you back as someone i trusted with my whole life again. i'm trying to let go, but how can i let go when i thought you were the one. you were only supposed to be in my life for a period of time to help me, and i didn't know that then but i do now. i don't want you back even though i miss you because i never want to feel the way i did when you left. i just want my best friend back, but at this point, that's too much to ask for. i have to let you go. hopefully, i can do that soon.