a month ago i would have wanted to kiss you but now I still do but I won't because I deserve better than how you treated me. i thought that I was special to you by the way to looked at me but it turns out you looked at everyone that way. we created so many memories together but now they just seem tainted. i realize now that I was in love with the thought of you and how you made me feel but that wasn't you, was it? and if you truly felt the same towards me than you would have put the effort in. I also know that you are going through a lot and i care that your ok and i want to be the one you come to because you have no one else, but i don't think i can be that anymore because it just hurts too much. I still have to see you once and a while and that's just so painful because i know we had a connection. But its time for me to let go now. i need to show you that you missed out on a great person and that i don't need you and that i never needed you