i don’t know what it is. i don’t know if i even like you in that way anymore. it’s just whenever you talk about them or mention how happy and new they make you feel i just break inside. when we hung out i felt like there was something happening like i always do when we are alone but as it always does, nothing happens. i’m happy you are in love with them i just feel like you left me behind. i know you would never abandon me or try to hurt me it just hurts. why am i doing this to myself again. i guess i just feel like you are the only one who could have ever loved me and now i’ve lost that too.