From: ABC
To: jimmy
Date: October 7, 2020, 5:57 am
Every time I think about you I get this weird feeling. It's the feeling of being stuck between the knowledge that you hurt me the entire time we spoke, and the amount of care I had for you. I don't know how to feel honestly. The chaos of your existence put me in a situation where I thought it was my job to fix you. I miss the laughs, no one makes me feel as loved as you did. But I don't miss the hurt. I couldn't be responsible for you I just wasn't ready for that. You loved to say absence makes the heart grow fonder, but with you gone my heart doesn't want you as it did before. Without you, I learned how bad our relationship was and how much I lost myself. The only problem is I can't find myself anymore baby, I don't know where I am. Maybe you changed me? All I know is that I'm better off without you, but without you, I am lost.