Unsent Messages

i still really like you. i wanna say love but i dont want it to be meaningless because i know that we are just friends & you probably dont feel the same.

and thank you, for sunday night when you told me to go get food and i said im not eating, most people brush it off, but you didnt. thank you for caring and asking why, i also think you know i was lying when i said i wasnt hungry. and thank you for showing you care with what i had to say about practice even though you didnt ask. and im not gonna lie it kinda hurt when you interrupted me to say you didnt ask, which is why i just stopped talking. but, thank you for caring to ask what i was trying to say and apologize. you mean so much to me, youre my safe place & most of all youre still my pink. i may be going through the worst moments, trying to move past things thatve happened thats just so hard, but i think of you and it just kinda melts away. i dont know what im gonna do when youre in college and im still here. so bray, just know, these moments, big and small, they matter so much to me, you matter so much to me. b, youre my pink, & my friends ask why we arent dating yet, i just cant tell you all of this face to face. youre seventeen, almost eighteen, im fifteen, and yet youre still my best friend. its crazy huh, the age gap, and i know youre my pink already, within six months of knowing each other, that first night we met, i felt like ive known you forever.