Unsent Messages

You really took a part of me I can never get back. You didn't mean that much to me but you still somehow hurt me more than anyone before. I forgive you but I still continue to hurt. You completely ruined me. I try to continue to grow everyday but I always come back to that night. Am I enough? Seeing you hurts me, not knowing what happened constantly runs through my mind. I let you use me knowing what it would cause me. I know one day I will be fine but the end just doesn't seem near. I used you to try to feel better for myself but you used me worse. You took something from me and just see me nothing more than that. I didn't expect to get more from you, but the tiny part of me that did will forever remain dark. You changed something in me. The stupidity in me continues to try knowing I will never mean anything more. I know I am better than this, then you, but I am ruined. How do I mean completely nothing to you? I knew this could never work so why did I let it start. Letting you use me was one of my worse mistakes. What you thought wasn't much keeps me up at night. What you have probably not even thought twice about completely ruined any self confidence I had. It feels as if, what you took from me, you are the only one that can give it back. What I search for in you, you can't give me.