Unsent Messages

I truly loved you like no other. Sometimes I still think about you and it still hurts. I grew a lot from the experiences of our break up and I thank you for that pain. It watered the roots of the man I am today. I hope you're doing well but I never wanna see you again unless we're together. I'm loving you from afar. I heard that you are going around with multiple people now, it seems odd of you to do that. I get the vibe that you aren't even the same person I once dated and that hurts. I put you on a pedestal in my mind for years, without knowing who the person you've grown to be. I do wonder if you still think about me. I still wonder what we could've been. And I also wonder who I could've been if I let go of you sooner. I've grown to be my own man and because of that, I can only thank you, but I do resent you for putting me through that pain. There's always a spark of joy that jolts through my body when I hear your name, and I'm sure no other guy has felt that way about you, I really wish you understood but you aren't the same person who I remembered. I miss the old you. I miss the old me. You were truly lucky to have me, and I was truly lucky to have you. I pray for a day where I can feel this way about someone else, where I can say your name without hurting. Why did you change?