Unsent Messages

i doubt ill ever tell any of this to you. there will never be the right chance, ill never be brave enough. so ill write it here. all my raw emotions and my love for you in this stupid little online thing cuz i dont have the balls to tell you any of this. im new to love. before you, i'd never been in love. you were the one who let me figure out my true identity, who i really am. you make my day better. everytime i see your face i get butterflies of excitement because i get to be around you. you light up my life.
ok lets start with the whole story...
it started as friends. we got really close and i had never really had a friendship like ours before. one where we could laugh, cry, tell each other everything, it was never like that for me. i always got so excited to go to school to see you. we were really close all the time. i thought it was just what it was like having a best friend, but i was wrong. when you came out was when i really knew. knew that it was more of a friendship i wanted. we got really close, holding hands, resting our heads on each others shoulders, long hugs, i thought you felt something too. but then, just as i was going to start thinking of how to tell you, you told us you were dating her.
i didnt know what to think.
i still think theres something more between us. something you havent done to me for years happened in science, out of no where you whispered in my ear, 'youre my favourite dylan' and as always i whispered it back. on our walks, you put your hand in my pocket, link your arm around mine, and one time amany literally said ooOOo and i-
are you leading me on on purpose? or do you just see this as friends. i dont get it. you confuse me. i still love you sophia, and i wont stop.