Unsent Messages

you were just another boy. then it was one day you caught my attention like no other boy has. maybe it is the way your eyes and face structure and body position softens when i come to you. maybe it’s the way your voice is softer to me or the way you say “hey” when i approach you. you’re tough on the outside, but i can sense the softness within. you remind me of myself. someone who is hard on the outside but soft on the inside. i never grasped your attention because although i knew you existed, i never saw you more then just another boy. it was until that one day i locked eyes with you and everything froze. see, it’s like time came to a halt. two worlds collided and all i heard was silence. it was just you and i. two atoms in a catastrophic world. when my eyes met yours i wasn’t scared. a shiver rushed down my spine but i was not afraid. men scare me. eye contact scares me. but you, you don’t scare me. you’re not scary. you’re not intimidating. approaching you can be nerve-racking because, well, you’re you, but i know you’re someone else and something else and that i can approach you. maybe it’s the way that when i come to you your soft words met me. never do you ever stutter. your words are soft and smooth like butter. the times i sought you and you sought me, i would catch your attention to me. your eyes hover my moves. though, different from other boys, when i would catch you starring at me you wouldn’t take your gaze away. it would stay steady on me and my moves. you wouldn’t quickly turn away or look in the other direction, you would lock your eyes on me. constantly, i felt my world freeze. there is something so chilly yet so warming about your gaze. maybe it’s because i’ve never felt this connection with anyone else. this connection feels so rare. so raw. so real. you were just another boy, until you became the boy i wanted.