Unsent Messages

hey lol where do i start. i’ve tried denying how i feel so many times because for one you’re in the grade below me but it’s just everytime i see you or talk to you i get the same feelings over and over again. it’s like butterflies, but i just feel so vulnerable and nervous and jealous when you’re around another girl. i know i’m not your type at all though. you like girls who are skinny, short, and have a nice body but something i’ve noticed is that they all see you the same way which i’ll never understand because even just from the smallest of conversations i’ve had with you i just know how much of kind, gentle, reserved, loving and funny person you are. it pains me to say this but at this moment of time if i were ever to put myself in a relationship even with a guy who’ll promise me the world, there won’t be a day were i won’t think of you and i don’t know what it is because you’ll never see me in that way so this all just confuses me. if only there was a way i could put how i feel about you into words, but i mean i’ll try my best to sum it up for you. dear yk who, i don’t know what it is about you that i admire so much whether that’s just you not giving me any attention whatsoever, or honestly just the thought of never actually being able to be with you, but one thing that’s certain is that whenever i am with you it feels like time has stopped and every moment spent with you even in a group environment is a moment i fall for you even harder than i already have. it’s been a year and you’re all i think about even though i know i’ll never be the one for you, but i promise that whatever happens and if you do meet that amazing girl one day i’ll be nothing but proud of you. so *, i love you.