you're always gonna be my soulmate in my head even though deep down I truly know we aren't meant to be together. in fact, we're terrible together. you hurt me in ways I didn't even know were possible. and I hate you for that. i have to draw on my legs with sharpies so my parents don't question what the white lines on my leg are. i know it's not fair to blame you for that but I do. you completely destroyed every part of me. and it's effecting every single fucking thing in my life. i cant believe that I'm loved by someone who loves me more than anything and is willing to give me the whole world. but because of the damage you did, I cant believe anything he's telling me. and I know we only were a fucking thing for a month but you hurt me more than anyone else I've ever been with. i got so attached so fast without you even knowing because I saw our whole future together. i still can. i wanna be with you. it'll always be you. and it shouldn't be. and i know you don't know what you did to me and it truly isn't your fault for me getting attached and getting hurt but why'd you leave me for her? what does she have that i don't? i ask myself that a lot. but i know I'm better, not just saying that, i know i am. so ur stupid for that lolz cause i was willing do to anything for you. but to my first love, i will always love you no matter what.