Thanks for being the first man to break my heart. You left me to start over with mom's best friend and her kids. I hate that I love you so much. I hate that you can't see them for who they are.I hate that I still want your approval. Because you left me, I worry that everyone who loves me will leave me too. It hurts knowing I wasn't enough to make you stay. I hate that you tell me you love me and treat me this way. I hate that you act like the perfect dad and tell me I'm evil and mean. I hate that after all of this you're happy and I still love you