Unsent Messages

so where do I even start? I have so many mixed emotions. like whenever I see you or thing of you, I secretly hold up my middle finger and I think "fuck you for everything you did." how could you, that was so evil. How could you knowingly break me apart. you probably don't even think you did anything wrong. you are prob thinking I'm a drama queen and I'm just dumb for caring. your face just gets me mad and gets on my nerves. like I hate you. but on the other hand I keep on wishing that you will call me and talk about it. I need closure. desperately. whenever I see you I always hope ur gonna say "hey minnie, lets talk." But you never do. you just physically ignore me and it hurts so bad. I kinda miss the old days and all our private jokes. like whenever they come up, i have no one to turn to and laugh about it. "pennies" remember that. mine and rikkis birthday present to you was gonna be that. that memory feels like a black hole in me. If you somehow see this, pls pls call me. Also i picked this color because it's purple. purple is usually pretty but this one turned into such an ugly color.