i guess i'm writing this to you as sort of a release of all of my feelings since i'm feeling down at the moment but i don't feel like texting all of this. i don't know how to be happy in a relationship and so the fact that i might be in one soon is terrifying because what happens if it goes just like my last one and i get hurt all over again? i don't know what i'd do. it also makes me want to cry everytime you cry because you're one of my best friends and seeing you hurt makes me hurt. especially when it's over petty boys who don't deserve your tears. just ignore him because he's not worth it. anyways, idk if you'll see this or not but i needed to get this stuff off of my chest because i'm overthinking and stressed. love you :)