Unsent Messages

Thank you for taking care of me when i was at my lowest and being there for my highest. You’ve stuck by me from the start and didn't leave. You were the first person i felt safe with. The first person I told all my secrets to and made me feel like I deserved to be here. I don’t know how long it will take for me to get over this but I know it won’t be anytime soon that’s for sure. It’s almost as if we were not meant to be best friends no matter how hard we tried. It’s taken me a long time to admit that and tbh i still haven’t. So many days, so many memories, so many good times that I won’t forget. Playing among us and you always knowing i was imposter because i sucked. It didn’t matter though because i loved spending time with you and laughing at all our funny jokes that only the both of us would understand. Your laugh is something that runs through my mind daily. It so pure and unique but also very contagious. You’ve always had the skill of making people feel better and Id just like to thank you for that. Thank you for introducing me to frank ocean and his song white ferrari. Thank you for getting me out of my skinny jeans phase and helping me become a person with more self respect towards myself and others. I want to thank you for everything because if I could do it all again i wouldn’t change anything except how I acted towards you and mistakes i made. I’m really sorry for all of it. every single bad decision I made was put on you and i’m so sorry for that because it wasn’t something you deserved at all. I miss you and always will but I hope you have a great life :)