Unsent Messages

Thank you. All I’ve ever wanted was reassurance and that’s what you’ve just given me. Acknowledging our own mistakes is what I feel like is pushing us to grow as better people. I too believe it grew to be toxic between us. The time apart had caused a lot of reflection, I hope you have as well. Sometimes people need time apart so that they can come back together stronger and better. That is my hope for us. I’ve learned topics of boundaries and what codependency means and I’m continuing to learn such things to become a better person not only to others but to myself. I truly thank you for such a lovely friendship in the beginning before it went uhh downhill haha. I can’t lie and say it wasn’t absolute shit the end of 2020 without you. But things happen for a reason, and this needed to happen. You were strong for making such a decision, I’m proud of you. I don’t think I could’ve done it. I’m glad you took initiative to ensure you’d be okay mentally. Granted I do wish it was done slightly different. But I forgive you. Looking back I don’t think I’d be where I am without the experience. It’s my dearest wish that you smiled and laughed more than frowned and cried in the end. And continue to have brighter days this coming year. Maybe one day we can start over, slowly, and carefully. When we’re both ready. People come into your life to teach you many things. And you’ve taught me a lot. But maybe.. it wasn’t our time. I look forward to a future where we both are proud and happy with who we are and how far we’ve come and I can awkwardly high five you cuz hugs are still weird lmao. Also... there’s this song that recently came out that I’ve nonstop listened to. Idk it makes me think of you, it’s really beautiful sounding. But these lyrics
“And all my friends are tired
Of hearing how much I miss you, but
I kinda feel sorry for them
'Cause they'll never know you the way that I do, yeah”. HIT. Because I feel that no matter what I say, they’ll never come close to understanding our bond and what we shared. Again, thank you for letting me experience something so wonderful even if it was short and became something we both wish to forget. (The bad not the good :o) i don’t ever want you to feel alone but if you ever do, just know I’m here. You’re never alone okay? I’ll always love you Alien.