Unsent Messages

I’m sorry I did too much, I wish I didn’t try to hard to make something happen because I ruined our friendship and the way you’ll see me and think of me forever. I hate myself for the stuff I would say to you and how annoying I was. I bothered you and I knew it but I couldn’t hold myself back because I just wanted to talk to you and be around you all the time but you didn’t feel the same way. And so I embarrassed myself so much and exposed myself and others for your attention and for the gratification of seeing a message from you pop up on my phone. I didn’t realize until the end of our friendship what I was like and I wish I could take back all the stupid cringey weird shit I said but it’s too late and now we don’t even talk anymore. It sucks because at this point I truly do miss your friendship, and what I felt for you was infatuation that I could not shake.