I know that it was my fault. Im sorry i didnt tell you anything i wasnt ready to talk about my problems yet. And i do love myself, i just dont love my body which I'm working on, i was getting better. and i know we wanted different things for the future. i was kids and a family and you dont. i guess we were just right people wrong time. i had so much i had to say to you but i dont feel the need to say them anymore. im trying to move on so hard. i want to let go. you have such a hold against me that if you were to text me asking for another chance id probably give it to you again. i still love you so so much, but its time to move on, god i wish i didnt have to but you hurt me. and im doing so good, i really am. im actually really happy atm. the only thing is i miss you. but we need to move on, im sorry. I love you so so much. yellow was always our colour. and butterflies and hot chocolate. i cant bring myself to throw away your letters i cant even open them. theyre just sitting in my bedside table. Im sorry. I love you.