I know we’ve never said it properly but I love you.. I really really fucking love you. and it scares me to death to think that you might leave me at any moment. I don’t know what i’d do till 4am if you left me. it hurts me when you self-destruct and I know you know it does. I trust you so much but my own issues make me doubt myself and i’m sorry. you’re my best friend. please don’t leave