From: ABC
To: Bubba
Date: October 3, 2020, 7:24 pm
i've always had difficulties on talking about whats on my mind and what's bothering me because i was never taught. when i tried to my gut wrenched and my throat tightened up and dried. i stuttered and had difficulties putting my thoughts into words when i didn't even understand them myself. i tried learning to hopefully make you proud and to be able to talk to you about things that were on my mind. it was difficult but it was worth it. i was always afraid of becoming like my father. i was afraid of happiness and love because i was always used to something ruining it. i was always trying to be the best version of myself because that's what you deserve. my own overthinking and thoughts scared me. i always hated the way i looked. it hurt seeing you compliment me and try talk to me about whats bothering me and me not knowing how to react or respond. i still love you