I still love you. So much. I know I just told u I dont. But what would telling you do? Ruin our relationship more than I just did. U r happy with your gf and Ill survive somehow. Even if my lonelynes is really bad rn. My abandomnent issues are getting worse. I really cant do this rn. All I do is suffer more and more trauma that nobody knows about. I miss you so much. We couldve gotten through this together you just lied. You lied about ,,I love you" cuz if this is what love looks like I dont know what kind of feelings I have. I keep on crying. Im sorry. Reay really sorry.