I stopped smoking finally. Partly because I can’t get myself out of bed half the days but it’s a plus. Whenever I do anything I want to tell you first, accomplishments just aren’t as good now I can’t. My meds aren’t great tho, it’s been hard and depressing lately but that’s just turned into numbness so I just feel like a ghost. Mum has been at my throat lately it’s been shit. All I do is work out, turn all the pain in my Head into physical pain. It all just hurts my heart. I wish I could sit with you having a blem and just talk about everything that’s happened lately so badly. They always made my days so much better
