Unsent Messages

hey. ik it’s been a while, a couple years even. i jus wanted to let some things go now that i have the courage. i love you. always have, always will. ik that me and your sister joke around all the time about my “other hoes” but know that that’s all it is, a joke. i’m sorry that sometimes i take it far, and i’m sorry if it makes you pissed or insecure. i truly never mean to hurt you. i beat myself up everyday about it. the fact that i let the both of us down. i read and see things that should make me hate your guts, but i can’t. sure i’ll be sad and mad and all those negative emotions, but you wouldn’t actually do that to me right ? right ? i imagine myself getting hurt by you every single day, but it doesn’t bother me as much as it should. it shows me that i get some sort of attention from you even if it’s bad. i’m sorry. i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry. idek what i’m sorry about at this point. YOU should be sorry, for idk what reason either. god i just miss you. i just want you to come back. we can both work on ourselves. i love you. i wholeheartedly do. pls come home. or at least wait for me to get to where you are. i love you. i promise you i do. more than anyone i’ve ever come across. believe it with your entire being. again, i love you. i hope you love me. anyways, bye. see you sooner or later i guess.