i love you so much. i cant believe you really left. all i want is for you to be happy. but i wish i couldve been the one to make you happy forever. you are still my best friend and i'm so glad i didnt lose you completely. but i miss falling asleep on your chest the nights we got to spend together. some of the stuff i want to do with you that wont happen anymore. like kissing you at the top of a ferris wheel. i just miss you so much. i really wish i could have married you. i'm not in as much pain as i was at first. but i still would do anything to make you the happiest i possibly can. and always will. i love you more.
