Unsent Messages

hey amy, you'll definitely never see this since this will get lost within the depths of everyone elses sadness, but i think ill just do it anyway. maybe it'll bring closure. dude i miss you so much you wouldn't believe. not your two friends, the toxic one who stopped our friendship and not the other one because shes kind of irrelevent, even though i know she'll be doing great things, with athletics and academically, but i really miss you. all throughout lockdown we could go out together and everything was perfect. we stopped talking over the DUMBEST fucking thing. and i hold grudges and i know you do too. you're worth a lot more than to be friends with that toxic girl. but you're too naive to see that right now. i think it was a right people wrong time kind of thing. i dont think you trusted me the way i trusted you but amy holy shit i really miss being your friend. i think we stopped speaking in July. its january now and i still feel the same way as i did when i was crying because i knew things would never be the same again. but heres some new things that have happened since our friendship came to an end: my sister was born. i was really hoping you'd meet her but not anymore. i went through really fucking traumatic shit and i needed you the most but you weren't there. you could have calmed me or helped me but you werent there and it made everything a lot worse. i unblocked u on insta, sorry for doing it in the first place.