From: ABC
To: Vani
Date: November 20, 2020, 12:55 am
Dear Vani, the dumbest bitch I have ever met, and yet, the most amazing person I’ve gotten the luck to meet.
I don’t even understand why you’re in my life, but I don’t wanna pity myself, It’s always such a surreal moment when I think about how we met, just one comment, in the few days I was kind, in a series of many of your posts, and that one fateful chance has lead to things such as a best friend, new hobbies, new interests, understanding myself better, learning to feel more empathy for others, having someone I don’t feel the need to hide anything from. I feel as if that in this world everyone is untrustworthy, so I put myself out there, I humiliate myself before other’s humiliate me, and yet still I kept many things hidden, it’s an enlightening feeling to let out how I feel, may it be anger, confusion, hatred, sadness, or hell even horni jail, I feel so incredibly safe talking to you. To me in this world, I don’t feel safe, but my 1 safe place is you, but I will be honest, I still get hesitant to say things, but unlike others where I fear the backlash and losing someone, instead I hesitate out of fear my opinions might disappoint you, that you may finally realize there’s nothing special about me other than cruelty. Yet in the end even in disagreements I feel so loved and cared for talking to you. I love how you text, how you react to cute things, the way you talk about your interests. There isn’t a single thing I could find to hate about you. But maybe, one day we’ll fight, likely me the one whom caused it but I want you to know, don’t trust my impulsiveness, I could never stay angry at you and I want our friendship to last forever. I wish to meet you someday, and I want to be there for you beyond the screen.
Whether it be fate or pure chance, I would like to take the opportunity of us meeting and expand it. I wish you to be comfortable with me as I am with you.
I love you and you better fucking realize that, and if you die, I won’t damn stop until I revive you.
I love you from your better mom and best friend, Haneul Kim.