I feel so numb right now, I want to talk to you and I try to text lately hoping for the slightest chance that you’d reply. It’s been such a dark time, I don’t sleep I can’t work, I’ve been in hospital in and out for a few days and it’s just so much. I didn’t want to be here anymore and was pretty set on it until I remembered our will pact about the spliff ashes and just properly smiled for once in a long time, thank you for being my guardian angle at my worst times even tho you aren’t here anymore.
